2004
Testimonies
Tom Haberkorn - Melbourne August 2004
Energy flowed up through my charka system to my higher self, completing an energy circuit. From this I felt my whole being renewed and replenished and old energy and thought patterns being removed and dissolved. Energy blocks were melted away and a flow of light put in place from my higher self to my physical self.
Kathryn Brooke - Brisbane July 2004
"The room feels warm and intimate with the calming smell of incense and soothing music playing. I feel safe - like I'm home."
At the end of July I received the transmission of enlightenment from Sandra, Daniel and the Heart Power team. I now feel a central sense of peace and tranquility.
I was working in a job a hated. Every day I woke with anxiety. I had a fear of the clock - as if time was my enemy. I blamed everyone and my environment for the fear and anxiety I felt on a daily basis. My mind was constantly racing, trying to plan every small detail of my life.
During my beautiful HEARTPOWER weekend I discovered how my own mind was creating the negative, fearful, anxious life I was struggling to live. That has changed now, from a single weekend. Through releasing the control I had given my mind, and opening my heart (which comes naturally with the enlightenment energy) my life has changed - and I didn't "plan" a thing!
I was released from my job with a nice payout, new work that I love is flooding in and, out of the blue, I'm going overseas. None of which I could have imagined possible 10 days ago.
I am no longer "being used" by my mind. I feel a peaceful energy inside. I have a strong sense of knowing. Knowing my life is beautiful. Knowing I'm safe and loved. Knowing that no one or no thing has the power to control my life. I have everything I need to experience a wonderful life every day - and I'm happily living it!
Sandra and Daniel have left me with a beautiful, powerful, healing energy. There is no preaching, no lecturing, just sharing of their gift with a strong sense of integrity. Thank you HEARTPOWER, from the bottom of my heart.
Robbie - Melbourne August 2004
This is my second HEARTPOWER weekend. After attending the first one which was wonderful I really wanted to deepen my state. I felt I was still living from the head and hadn't made that connection to my heart that I had all my life dreamed of. I am a very intellectual person - to the point of frustration that I can't really feel anything! This 2nd weekend changed all that. This time as I received the energy I decided to let go and prompted the sensations to occur rather than waiting passively for something to occur (I do this in my life as well). A whole range of physical tingles, itches, 3rd eye pulses and swirling in my head and body began to occur of their own accord! I also felt my arms becoming very light and start to float. Feelings and desires came more easily as did visions of what I truly want in my life - a soul-mate and family and a great life together.
This weekend as I did the past life meditation I found it easier to cut the ties to and interference from the negative past life experiences. It felt very life-like. It was the same with bringing in the positive energies.
On Sunday the thought "I don't mind" started to repeat itself in my head, somehow releasing the mind from the burden of having to not only think but also to feel. For once the heart and mind seemed separate but still one, working in harmony, to know truth, rather than the mind desperately trying to work out the truth on its own.
This weekend I know has changed my life forever. Thank you so much Sandra and Daniel. When's the next one?
Melbourne - August 2004
During the weekend I had a vision of Jesus Christ taking a cross away from me and many little crosses that were attached to me. He said you don't need them anymore! I had a strong kundalini experience, feelings of hot and cold. Sri Kalki was there and gave me a personal message. Blockages in the throat charka were removed and I was laughing and crying spontaneously. Complete expansion of awareness. On a practical level I asked for a resolution to a disturbing ongoing problem. I have neighbours that are very rowdy, screaming and yelling all the time and definitely involved in something illegal. It is a quiet neighbourhood and I and the people around me have been at our wits end as to how to resolve the situation. As I received the energy on Sunday I asked for a healing to this situation. That night I went home and as I began my regular meditation the screaming started up. I asked Sri Kalki straight away to help so I could complete my meditation and immediately all the noise completely stopped! Nothing, not even a whisper. I completed my meditation giving thanks for that mini miracle. After the meditation all the noise began again as if the pause button had been taken off.
The next day a few of the neighbours were meeting with the landlord to discuss the problem. As we broached the subject the man interjected and said "You don't have to worry. They've moved out this morning"! We were all shocked and the landlord said it had just happened suddenly with no warning. That is a huge miracle to me and I am stunned and grateful for it and in awe of how quickly and fully this energy works.
Melbourne - August 2004
My experience over the weekend is one of a deeper awakening of my own spirituality, drawing me into a complete state of enlightenment. I also noticed my spiritual gifts coming more to life.
Melbourne - August 2004
Amazing! After receiving the energy I found it very difficult to be in control of my body. I couldn't sit or stand. As soon as I lay down on the floor I felt at one with the floor. My whole body just sunk into the pillow and blanket, carpet and then the whole floor. The most incredible feeling. I cannot put the rest of my experience into words.
Melbourne - August 2004
This is a wonderful experience for me. I feel many body sensations - my body is warm, expanding and my head is heavy. I feel this is worthwhile for me. I especially flew in from Hong Kong to do this weekend. I know now I am fully enlightened.
Thank you.
Jann - Melbourne August 2004
When I left home on Saturday morning I kissed my husband and stated that THIS DAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE and that it is and was! I feel a deep gratitude for the opportunity to receive the gift of enlightenment. Experiencing waves of peace and serenity. I'm recognizing blockages and pain in parts of my body.
My heart is now the CEO of my being! I look forward to our next meeting
Phillip. G. Murie - Melbourne August 2004
I experienced a state of deep and profound relaxation. I look forward with great anticipation to deeper states in my meditation.
Hong Kong - August 2004
This seminar is so wonderful, beautiful and special for me and every human being. I can feel Sandra and Daniels' divine love, divine wisdom and divine power given to us! Thanks a lot from my heart! I hope to see you soon.
With Love
Los Angeles - USA June 2004
There is more peace in my heart. I also feel there is more reference to the heart - as if I am observing from that vantage point. The Someone who has occasionally shown Itself as the Beloved is now less hidden and continuously present. I feel less isolated, disconnected and starved for love - I feel a steady comfort.
Tamira Hughes - Los Angeles USA June 2004
Upon receiving the enlightenment energy I felt an emptying out of all worry and concern for my own circumstances and those of others. It was immediate and complete. I felt like (energetically) my plate was "wiped clean". I feel a new inspiration and sense of hope about my spiritual practice and my mission - to assist others in becoming happy. Yesterday - before coming to this course I lost my wallet and everything in it, including a lot of money and pictures and memories. It was a painful experience, however I now see the divine timing and new beginning attached to this event. Thank you for your time, beauty and love. It is obvious to me that your devotion to your life's work will propel you into un-chartered territory and there is no doubt the next time HEARTPOWER is in Los Angeles there will be a waiting list for your course. I came to the workshop hoping to move out of my emotions and into my head more as a point of balance. I realized moving into my heart was all I needed. I felt in the past I had been living in my heart and responding from my heart, but in fact I moved mostly from an emotional place when relating to myself and others - I now experience a direct line to the Heart.
Auckland - New Zealand June 2004
A very moving experience of past cleansing, giving one insight into the causes of today's anxieties and problems. Heart power shows a way to empower oneself and increases ones awareness of how to live life to its fullest with joy in every moment.
Auckland - New Zealand June 2004
The physical laying on of hands to transfer the Integrated Wholeness energy was radical! It felt like I had been plugged into an electric socket that entirely filled my whole being, connecting me to an awesome power... the God power. It brought to me a huge feeling of being back where I belong. It allowed me to align my true being with my physical being. It brought me incredible forgiveness and a surge of love, the understanding of true love that is unconditional. The ability to soar. I experienced the white light, the purple flame and flying with real wings.
Thank you all for this.
Rod Newman - Melbourne July 2004
I received a healing when Sandra first came into the room on Saturday morning. The energy in the room was amazing! I felt totally accepted and LOVED. I was able to explore my inner feelings and emotions and trace where they came from, and then RESOLVE them. I feel I can go forward with my life more confidently and successfully, knowing that if further issues arise, I have the teachings to resolve them. I thank Sandra and Daniel for their love and support.
Simon Burke - Living Now Magazine Melbourne July 2004
The feeling I got during my time with Sandra and Daniel is indescribable. After searching for years through using all sorts of drugs, nothing can compare to the ecstasy felt through this amazing enlightenment power. The work they are doing is wonderful and I thank God that our paths crossed.
Love and Light.
Helen Hope - Auckland October 2004
Dear Sandra and Daniel,
It was totally beyond my imagination as to what we were to receive from you over the weekend!! I have been to many workshops over the years, but yours was absolutely amazing. Thank you so VERY, VERY much for arranging such a special event where you were so 'open hearted' to transmit the special energy of Enlightenment to all of us there.
On the Friday night I felt a heaviness in the head when receiving the Healing. This feeling remained through the night and into the next day (Sat) when it gradually developed into a headache. I am prone to migraines, but this was different and I was still able to do the work you asked us to do - although I'm not sure whether I cleared as much from the past lives as I should have, (so will have to come back....) The actual delivery of the Integrated Wholeness energy was amazing and this was a heavier weight!! I was in bed much earlier than usual - and slept solidly all night. Unfortunately I woke with a migraine type headache and could not make it to the Sunday afternoon session. I consoled myself with thinking that I was better to consolidate what I had received, rather than over-load myself with more energy.
Thank you again for your very special "Gift".
Love & Blessings to you both - Helen Hope
Cynthia Franklin - New Zealand October 2004
What an inspiring weekend - I am still glowing with all the energy. I was totally amazed at the difference in my energy after I had written my "report" on what occurred during the final Attunement. What I wrote about was my "stuckness of mind" and inability to move from this position... And then discovering that I had totally moved from that position during the talk which followed...Wow!!! We will certainly be back - with a few others I am sure - we have already had 3 enquiries from others this morning!
Robert Stentvedt - Brisbane November 2004
I have never experienced such love. I was touched by a grace that facilitated an awakening that allowed me to express and feel like I have never done before. Thank you so much for this. I feel like I am able to stop searching now.
Murray Cox - Brisbane November 2004
It is impossible to quantify what is happening during the transmission of enlightenment energy. You may feel nothing but the results are very real. If not immediately then just wait and observe.
The energy is subtle yet pervasive and it works on so many levels. It comes upon you when you least expect it. It is truly an adventure into your own consciousness. At times "the mind" has attempted to intervene but the energy sweeps the mind aside and anchors itself in your heart. It is truly a miracle!!!
Thank you to the HEARTPOWER team for reminding me of my true self. Love and Light "The Eagle"
Adrian Grey - Brisbane November 2004
Today I saw the divine spirit flowing into another person. No one was touching him but the sheer energy was bursting in him. The beauty of the divine energy can be breathtaking and everlasting in timelessness. I'm here for all beings. No matter how big or small a blessing. Many blessings and love also to Sandra and Daniel. And the loving HEARTPOWER crew. PS thank you for all the healing and fixing my leg.
Danny O'Brien - Brisbane November 2004
My mind is like a void. Still like a pond without I ripple on it. Clarity of mind. Difficult to express but I feel very relaxed and supported. What a wonderful gift and how wonderful it would be to share this with others. Everything else seems not to matter very much, I feel at peace within myselfand intend to cultivate this feeling. Thank you Daniel, Sandra, Lara, Patrick, Kerry, Anthony and Lesey.
Eloith Tonkin - Brisbane November 2004
Bit exhausted right now. Lots of the emotional pain, though not as much or as heavy as before. Generally feel lighter. At lunch time after the black mud cleansing session and since, I feel generally lighter and different. I did some dancing in the room afterwards at lunchtime. I could see some things I could let to go of. I can see my patterns more clearly. I feel love for my father and a need to let him know this. I suddenly felt my grandfather and a great grief that I never knew him. I feel also kind of fuzzy and high- a bit manic. Sometimes I find a smile on my face. I feel emotionally exhausted. I have felt a lot of love here today. Some moments to even be known and accepted - this is amazing for me, that's a big deal, as I am very scared to really be myself. I have never felt known by anyone and I crave this deeply. I feel I hide myself very deeply - am also hidden from, and lost to, myself. I feel the love and acceptance from Sandra - thank you so much. Yesterday - lots of headaches but not today.
Michael Molyneaux - Brisbane November 2004
My head kept moving and swaying in a rhythmic fashion. I could sense the others moving about the room and feel their attention shift to me as they came to share the power of this gift. It felt as though my brain was exposed and bobbing in the ocean. When hands were placed on my head it felt as though their hands and fingers were in my brain. I felt a great peace and wonder and mind energy presence seemed to grow. It was as if I had the wings of an angel. I felt calm, assured and whole.
Barbara Leo - Brisbane November 2004
Waves of energy through the body, especially neck and back of the head. Visualization of colors and shapes changing in brow and crown region.
Sensation of great peace and white light.
Heaviness and weightlessness.
The body dissolves and becomes an energy field.
Live within and without.
Sensation of receving the Integrated Wholeness energy was so peaceful and loving.
When I received Sandra's transmission I felt this incredible and endless trust to letting go - dissolving.
Overall the sensation of peace was and is standing out in today's experience. I have asked for peace all week and I was given it. Thank you!
Lynda Yanks - Los Angeles October 2004
This was a special experience - the deepness of the energy cleared away the obstacles to fulfilling my life's purpose. Both of you filled my heart with a clear and unconditional love. I also received some visions of how all the energy was healing my thyroid, liver, lungs and liver. There are more comments deep in my heart and, my mind is feeling drugged out.
Tyson Oakland - Los Angeles November 2004
My body pulsing, energy vibrating by strings throughout my body. Tapped by my heartbeat. Drained. My body moving, pulled gently sometimes, joltingly in different directions. Vibrating spheres along my spine. Happiness that others are actively enacting the better existence for all.
Mariah Sandwell - Los Angeles November 2004
After the transmission I went into a very deep state, drifting in and out of consciousness. At times forgot where I was in the room and was able to dissociate from what was going on around me. Slight headache and slightly uncomfortable because of being on a liquid fast and my bowels not moving too well. Dying to go home and do an enema! (Clean out all this stuff) In the days preceding this my aloneness or wanting to be alone has come up a lot. Realised that I was not alone and part of a big family. I think this will help me with opening my heart more. Came to realise that my aloneness was maybe my way of controlling my environment and what happens to me.
Christine Louise Parker - Los Angeles October 2004
Today, as the four of you - Lara, Mekala, Sandra and Daniel gave me energy I formulated what I would wish to do. To go to the root of the world and all the high holy places, to Peru and Tiber and Kilimanjaro, to find the lost and hidden treasure teachings - to meet with the ascended ones and ancients.To re-connect the ancients with the spirits of the earth. I came here to connect some of the Guardians of Africa with this wisdom energy. Specifically I brought into the state some of the ancient bush spirits and grandfathers of Tutsi and the Batwa People's. I saw the light force of the Nile from its source at Kilimanjaro. I saw the spine of the Americas. With each transmission I said thank you, thank you. Including in my love those who could not come this time. After laying down and during that time, just feeling a deep and very energetic state of clear bliss. My body vibrating throughout. Very Tingly!
Emily - Auckland October 2004
At the beginning I was aware of a very old fear - that of being alone, of being lost, being no where. And with that fear came an old tendency - reacting to, trying to escape it, trying to avoid the pain and sadness in that.
The sadness felt vast but the message was clear.How can you be whole and free if you keep on running? How can the answer be outside yourself?
So I stayed still and went through the pain and soon enough the vastness of it became the vastness of love and peace. To be pointed back into myself is the greatest gift as I have searched outside myself forever. I felt the hope and strength of the possibility of a life to live without fear, without running.
Each pair of hands, brought forth more love, compassion and opening. Physically I feel relaxed and peaceful and very grateful to have attracted such unconditional grace and love into my life at this time. A time of great change, wonder and excitement! Thank you.
Kristine Newsome - Auckland October 2004
Very interesting day. First the excitement of the promised possibility of getting my life in older - letting negativity go alone would be wonderful. So many negative thoughts around a certain situation in my life but still I am unable to let it go and just walk away. As it causes me so much negative headspace I was hoping the past life regression would explain the strong attachment to this particular person. The regression involved just me and explained to me the thread of feeling not good enough and that I don't fit in. My response was to develop a shell around me, enclave, be alone with myself. I hated them for the treatment of me and hated myself even more for unspoken and unshown need for them and longing to be loved when I was anything but. During the time with my little girl I was surprised to feel cold tears sliding down my face and was conscious of wanting to keep it all together, especially when I had to be there for my little girl and teenage self-another trait from my current life. Be there for others even before looking after myself. During the meditation to receive the energy today I seemed to immediately go into a trance and this happened involuntarily. I'm not sure if I was in this trance for a minute or several minutes. I noticed that after (or was it during or even before?) the first person's hands on my head was quite heavy and tight In a different way. I also had two hot flashes! And other tingling, cold feelings. As time went on and others put their hands on my head it felt to heavy to hold up. I just wanted to lie down. I also noticed a twice the slight feeling of nausea. When I did lie down, I fell asleep a couple of times. I look forward to being able to clear away and clean up the negativity in my life, tomorrow. To use the insights gained today to work out why I have been stuck in this situation for so long. Thank you for what you have started for me. Spirituality has been put on hold for far too long. I look forward to starting my life again. Stop giving big chunks of it, and myself, away to others especially to this one particular person who I am "stuck" with.
Jen Laing - Auckland October 2004
Profound. Deep, deep spaces. Awareness of exquisite energy filling my body then settling. Deep stillness, calm, serenity, expanding out from me, in me, around me. An awareness of my surroundings yet not connected just observing. Surrounded by a strong aura which seemed to stop activity. After the morning session I needed to continue to lie afterwards for a long time - I wasn't able to move - I felt like things were adjusting and changing within my body especially within my head. When Sandra approached me from the front - I saw a bright white light. As Sandra gave the energy I became more vibrant, filled, alive in every cell of my body.
Alan Franklin - Auckland October 2004
Felt the issue of responsibility and intention. Responded very much to the mind taking a subservient role to the intelligence of consciousness. Really felt the intelligence of consciousness becoming ones guiding energy and allowing that to be. When covered in the black clay I felt dark roots been drawn out of my body into the clay. During the laying of hands there was resistance in my mind trying to assert itself. That faded. I felt heat working below the navel and something in my stomach was released - in an area where I have had a lot of problems. My sense was just to let the energy do its work without any mind stuff.
Lisa - Auckland October 2004
This morning after the black clay experience I saw brushes brushing me down so that there was not one speck of clay left on me. I was bathed in pink light. Then someone called Dranna gave me a silver lapis lazuli bracelet and put it on my left hand. I felt really 'out of it' - even during lunch. The chakra meditation triggered some kundalini activity when working on the base chakra. The whole meditation was very deep for me. Afterwards, I felt very calm and sleepy! I felt ready to you forgive the people I had a problem with although I still have a niggle that wants to be right. When I received the energy, my head was not as tight as yesterday. Everything went purple when Sandra touched my head.
Vivienne Berry - Auckland October 2004
Cold, hot, pain - hole in the back of my heart - knees - lower back.
Then I built a house
- received some paintings to paint
- heart - planted a garden - where there was once a desert
- went to India.
Lots of movement - swirling, figure 8 and pulsing in 3rd eye & crown.
Peaceful & very clear.
At times I was the drum in the music, I was the music, I was the rhythm.
*And I made love to somebody*
Jilly Grant - Auckland October 2004
After receiving enlightenment energy. The first set of hands came on me soon after the charka meditation experience started. In some ways I suddenly felt grounded, but wanted to know where I would have gone if hands hadn't come on me. Felt empty and profoundly full at same time. Throughout transmission time i felt more hands on me than was in the room. As last hands on given, I felt 2 areas of my body "ping" outwards as the energy had blasted through blocks. Feeling of oneness, peace & then ver, very heavy all of a sudden. Whole body felt like lead as I lay on floor but this quickly passed to feel light. Very aware of music - felt body wanted to dance to celebrate "release".Extremely aware of colours when opened eyes - went thru whole room observing colours & texture of everything. Happy to be peaceful & quiet - didn't feel fidgety which normally I would have by that stage.
Emily - Auckland October 2004
During the chakra exercise I found this a very powerful opening. A lot went on especially in the solar plexus "throat charkas. The chanting was beautiful as it vibrated thru my whole body "felt as though we were all one voice, one heart. Again the energy from each pair of hands was very different. I explained the feeling of others "unseen" being with me also "even touching my head lightly with fingers. It was fun to open to all this. I experienced an opening "deepening into my true self. I felt beyond doubt that I am not the limited entity of a person with a body "a persona. I felt the vastness of my heart, of relaxing into that "how limitless it is. Many body sensations "the mind pulling me into everyday thoughts but... no matter. I feel deeply committed to truth "the ongoing discovery of truth within myself "others. Feel a bit spaced out! Thank you to Sandra, Daniel "the HEARTPOWER team for your wonderful "powerful work.
Nicole Marie - Melbourne November 2004
I went inside my soul/source. Feeling calm, serenity and peace for a brief moment. After receiving several energy touches on the head, I felt like my head was liquid and energy and light were pouring into my crown Chakra. I began to sway slightly from side to side with my head in this state and I felt the energy moving "liquid like" with me. My head constantly tilted backwards with my third eye receiving much love and light from source/grace. I felt a gentle glow of golden amber slowly fill every part of my body. I then started to see pictures. First an elephant and the words power, strength - what a memory. Then the sun-radiating warmth, light, energy. These were symbols of what I am and have become now. Lots of smiling, laughing. I then felt my spine go straight, straight, straight! I felt very centered with the energy in a total straight line from myself to God. I am filled with much gratitude to you, your team, the energies present and the greater of all that is for receiving this awesome energy. I then crashed for I don't know how long and when I awoke I was filled with much love for all those around me. Thank you, thank you, thank you. PS I felt my heart healing and with each deep big breath it grew in size and love and pinkness, health. It was wonderful to witness.
Ruthie - Melbourne November 2004
I felt a lovely gentle feeling of inner peace-calmness. A feeling like my love feels gentler. I started to dream, saw a tree. I can't really put into words at the moment what has happened but I know something has shifted and changed. It is feeling of coming home.
Jean Franks - Los Angeles October 2004
Dear Sandra, Daniel, Lara and all of the HEARTPOWER team,
The energy felt very different from my first HEARTPOWER weekend in June. Today the energy was very strong... I could feel the heaviness going up through my hands into my arms... my arms felt like steel rods. I sat in my chair feeling like a carved statue instead of the usual restless being that I am. I feel very content and peaceful. Day 2. Thank you, thank you, thank you . . . I was driving from Los Angeles and honestly had forgotten about the program taking place in New Zealand, and suddenly, I felt as if a golden ball was stirring inside me (it was so clear) and then I looked down at my arm, and I felt the energy so strong, once again flowing through my left arm just as it had done at our weekend in Los Angeles. Then at once, I thought of you and the weekend we shared. Thanks so much. I have been experiencing very, very unusual headaches just as I did after my first HEARTPOWER weekend. The energy must be really working on me and within me!! I can hardly wait to see and feel the adjustments that the energy makes in my life!!
God bless you for your work.
Joelle Corbett - New Zealand October 2004
Dear Sandra, Daniel and Lara,
Thank you very much for your wonderful weekend and to be honest, I wasn't too sure what to expect. I had a very strong belief that I would feel something in the weekend, which I certainly did. I went along to a spiritual development group on Monday night, (after your weekend) and we did an exchange of healing energy. (Although I am trained as an auric healer the lady I gave healing to said a very powerful and intense heat came out of my hands). On Tuesday morning I awoke at approximately 5.50 am and all of my body felt really hot. In fact, I could feel very hot energy powering out of my hands. The feeling and the heat was like none I have ever experienced before. My brain ache has continued but I am learning to ask the energy to lower and rise in frequency as I feel I need it. I know that my life lesson is to learn the lessons of unconditional love for myself first and then for humanity. I have felt the calling to serve and work for God with all my heart and soul for a long time. What was holding me back was that I was still building the courage and the letting go of my self-doubt to do so. I shall continue with my personal work. I cannot wait to return to another HEARTPOWER program. I am feeling in my heart that I will receive divine love, my twin essence and the family that I long to share my love with.
The love that resonates from all of your team was and is just profound, and I truly felt myself in the presence of Great Masters as my eyes met Daniel and Sandra.
I know I still have a long way to go before I reach enlightenment but I feel very excited that I will regain this state in this lifetime. I have been sharing my experiences with all who will listen and in time I pray that they may partake in your wonderful programme Love and light
Robbie Kiss - Melbourne August 2004
The second weekend of receiving enlightenment triggered a process which over the following week brought to the surface emotions & frustrations that had been buried for several months over an ended relationship. Unresolved issues & emotions surfaced. Without realising I had started to express, address, and finally close each issue that had been gnawing away at the back of my mind, & heart. I constantly felt compelled to express my pent up anger & disappointment, confusion & a myriad of other mixed feelings and thoughts. In doing so, all of my positive and negative experiences seemed validated and so the emotional charge around each issue simply dissipated. Each issue felt completed and became a valuable lesson for life rather than a mill stone. It was as if this chapter in my life had to have a conclusion before the next chapter could commence. I also took further responsibility for my actions and my role in the relationship since ensuring 'integrity' in all things I do, think and feel kept playing in my mind again and again during the process that week. It was not about being more or doing better, it was about releasing self-imposed and unnecessary fears and restrictions in order to allow my true self to function. I felt time had come to step up to another level, take greater responsibility and awareness in life; and with it receive the incredible and, in some ways, subtle rewards that inevitably come with a higher level of consciousness. During the process, I realised some incredibly beautiful aspects of myself, my former partner, the relationship and life, beyond anything I had previously comprehended. Epiphanies for want of a better word were occurring each day. So instead of primarily focusing on how things had gone wrong and practical/logical ways of fixing them, I found myself simply appreciating (and being grateful for) all the wonderful experiences that I hadn't noticed properly or consciously at the time - for once in my life, I finally stopped and smelled the roses in all their glory. I used to always 'logically' understand and thus appreciate experiences, especially negative ones for the hard earned valuable lessons to be had; now I found myself appreciating them from the heart as well. In doing so I realised I had dropped the deep need to avoid 'losing' a valued friendship and thus allow her soul to continue progress along its own path in life.... Essentially, I received far more than I could have conceived. Strangely enough I hadn't expected or planned anything as the process started to play out. No logical objectives to achieve or philosophies to ponder, and very little conscious thought control either. It seemed as if I was being led by something other than my deliberate thought processes. I didn't mind. In fact my mind was happy to take a well earned break and a back seat to the heart for a while. Eventually it seemed the heart and mind were operating as one, thoughts and emotions flowed freely but without the need to control them. Integrity and wisdom seemed to guide the entire wonderful process. Mere words cannot do justice to the sheer enormity and value of what I went thru that week. What I am still going thru. A wonderful chapter in my life is finally closing properly. I look forward to the next chapter with my heart and soul as my guide. Oh yes, and my mind...