2005
My HEARTPOWER Experience - Alexi Neocleous
FROM: Alexi Neocleous
TO: Anybody thinking about coming to HEARTPOWER
Re: My HEARTPOWER Experience.
I am sitting here at my PC writing these words at 12:28 am, Tuesday morning. This letter is for anybody who is thinking of participating in HEARTPOWER, but doesn't know if it's for them.
I was in your position one day, so I know how you feel. I have decided to chronicle some snippets of my own personal experiences because I've done quite a number of events (at the time of writing 14 weekends), so I'm probably a pretty good ‘test case' of the effects the energy can have. I'm quite certain that I have one or two things to share that you'll find interesting.
In this letter, I am going to focus on my internal state more than anything else. This is because this is the only thing that really matters. Sure, I've had wonderful experiences happen on the external (business dealings open up faster... my family and I are closer than ever before... I make friends in a split second etc.,) but this has been a consequence of the internal world projecting out (and being under the influence of a different attractor field. A faster vibration).
Daniel and Sandra haven't asked me to write this letter. It's something that I feel compelled to do. In a sense, this letter is writing itself, and it is coming from my heart (as most of what I do now does).
Before I go into it however, I would like to say that my story is NOT unique in the least bit. There are dozens... perhaps even hundreds of HEARTPOWER participants that have stories as magical as mine, and in some cases, even more magical!
So, please, don't think that I am anything special. I am just somebody who has exposed himself to this energy more than most.
At this stage, I think it should be fair to mention that HEARTPOWER is not the only spiritual practice I partake in. Since attending my first HEARTPOWER in November 2004, I have quite literally immersed myself in the works of Dr. David Hawkins. I've watched, and watched again, his DVDs countless times... I've heard him speak on the radio... have read his books, and I even traveled to Sedona to see him live (what an experience that was!
Ok, so let's get into it...
Where should I start? There have been so many changes in my world it defies my imagination. If you had told me one year ago, my perception of the world would be what I describe below, I would have thought you were on drugs.
I guess I should explain the space I was living in before HEARTPOWER. On the Hawkins scale I was smack bang in the 400s i.e. the mind.
I would seek to analyse all situations. I would seek to understand the cause of situations. I believed that the source of happiness was found in knowledge (of the mind). And so I read, and read, and read...
I loved to engage in debates. I loved the acquisition of new information. And of course, I loved displaying my knowledge in my chosen field of expertise (and even in fields I had NO expertise in. The gall.)
I was extremely ambitious and driven. Manifesting financial abundance has been something that's been relatively easy for me. This is probably because I defined my sense of self from how well I did in business.
Outside of love for my family, love as an experience was not prevalent in my life. The vast majority of people were kept at a relatively safe distance. Sure, I would let people into my life, but to say there was a heartfelt connection would not be accurate.
Compassion was not something I was very easily able to muster either. At funerals, I would find it hard to offer my condolences to the family of the departed. I would get tongue-tied.
And when people expressed a calamity in their life, in true 400's fashion, I would seek to break down the ‘problem' and offer a solution.
As you can imagine, my girlfriends didn't love that. And when they'd react in the way they knew how, saying I am not listening, I thought there was something wrong with them.
How is life now?
Well, the desire to achieve, for the sake of achieving, has all but disappeared. Symbols like the need to wear an expensive watch... flash clothing... regularly dine out in expensive restaurants... or to display my expertise in my chosen field (and thus feel important) has withered away at the seams.
The drive to conquer the world... have my name in lights... and to be well known in my field has all but disappeared.
The need to build a financial empire is no longer present.
This does NOT mean that I now shun material success. Quite the contrary. It is something that is accepted, and experienced, like anything else. I still enjoy fine restaurants. However, I am just as happy munching on a Subway than I am dining at Tetsuya's. I still enjoy wearing nice clothes. However, I am just as happy in shorts and a T-shirt.
When something appears in my reality that society deems as ‘good news,' it is experienced. Just as it is.
If a ‘fortunate' turn of events occurs (business wise or in any other aspect of life) it is experienced. As is.
Goals in the traditional sense have disappeared. I no longer have goals as the ‘self development' gurus would tell you to do.
I no longer look externally for so-called motivation. I no longer need to visualize/imagine the things that I think I want in order (materialistically) to get out of bed and work my butt off.
Why is this?
Well, it's simple really: the reference point for my life has gone from the external... to... the internal. I no longer look externally to see how my life is going. Actually, it doesn't matter.
What matters to me is the experience of the present moment.
What happens externally is becoming less and less consequential to me. I won't say that it has no consequence to me... because... that just wouldn't be accurate. I am not there, yet. No. Life for me now is not something I try to control. I surrender it to the powers that be (for the sake of this letter I'll use the word God. But I'd be just as comfortable to use any other word that denotes the Allness). In this surrendering, I trust that whatever arises in my present moment is perfect for me at that time. No matter what it is. Sometimes it's what society may deem as ‘bad'. Other times it's ‘good'.
In any regard, it makes less and less difference to me... because... my reference point has automatically, and on its own, moved to the internal.
What is, is. This may sound odd to you. And I would understand if you felt that way. However, I can tell you it is very liberating to care less about what happens on the external. To not have my happiness and peace tied to what others do, how my career goes, or even what people think of me.
With an internal reference point shining forth, love and peace is your prevalent experience of life. And I can attest that is what my life is like now.
There no longer is a ‘grand plan' for my life. I no longer have any pre-meditated direction. Sure, I have an inkling where things are heading... but everything is kept open ended.
It is wonderful not knowing what is around the corner. It is wonderful not knowing what will take place in my life tomorrow. It is wonderful not having the obsession to control, and to be able to surrender to prevalent conditions.
There is less identification with the body. I used to be an exercise freak. Now, not so. I exercise because I choose... to look after the body (not my body).
Integrity is now endemic in my life. Not because I see lack of integrity as ‘wrong'. It's just because there is less attachment to the mind and its dualities. And so, what shines forth is love. And love is complete integrity.
Let me give you an example of what I mean.
The other night, I was out with some friends at a nightclub. A young lady showed a keen interest in me. She was hot to trot, as they say.
Anyway, as most guys would attest, a woman showing interest in you is almost always a green light to ‘score'. Even if we're not interested in a long-term relationship (or even her directly). It's still some ‘action'. And some action is better than none. Right guys?
Sounds crude I know, but it's the prevailing situation with most guys at this time. I can say, on some level, in the past it was true for me, too.
However, after doing so many events with Daniel and Sandra, and advancing spiritually, having sex for the sake of having sex is simply unacceptable to me now. You see, the more you are exposed to the energy, and advance spiritually, you automatically become more integrous. You crave to connect from the heart in all of your human expressions, especially in an intimate setting. In addition, you see the karmic implications of actions more clearly. You feel other's suffering, pain and confusion. You understand what is appropriate, and what is not. This happens to me regularly. It happened the other night. With this young lady, I felt the pain she would experience if I toyed with her emotions. I KNEW the damage that would result if I had some fun with her, and then walked away.
And I just couldn't do it. The physical act of having sex was of no interest to me. Without a heartfelt connection, what's the point, right?
And so, integrity really does start to become a dominant force in your life with this energy (and with spiritual advancement). Not only in relationships, but in ALL areas of one's life. In business. At home. In everything.
Of course, it hasn't been all smooth sailing. Many a time, I've experienced what the Indian's call "The Dark Night Of The Soul".
What is that? Well, it's hard to put into words... because... it's different for everybody, but the best way I can put it is like this: all the unconscious emotional ‘stuff' that one has repressed in this lifetime (and previous lifetimes) comes to the surface to be observed, experienced, and lived.
Yes, lived.
This is because HEARTPOWER is such a potent consciousness raising work, any issues within the personality that you've disowned (e.g. repressed anger) is literally forced to the surface for you to look at. It blasts through our personality programming.
I've found the HEARTPOWER process so potent in fact, even if one does NOT want to address the disowned parts of the personality, it still bubbles to the surface. You have no choice but to address it!
Why does the Dark Night take place? It's because your consciousness has raised, and Spirit knows that you're now able to deal with deeper issues you've been unable to address previously.
You've earned the ‘karmic right', so to speak.
And how does it feel? Well, to be honest, not very good. Especially the first time. Like I said earlier, the Dark Night, is different for every person. For me, virtually every Dark Night centred around my career. And so, I would lose direction... I would question my work... my purpose in life etc., etc.,
Others go into a deep depression, exhibit anger, sadness and even loneliness.
It's different for everybody. Whatever you've repressed in the past, comes forth to be expressed. And that is the key. Allow it to happen. Some people go through very long periods of Dark Night. Others go through relatively short periods. The difference between the two is the degree of resistance.
What you resists, persists!
At any rate, nowadays I honestly welcome the Dark Night. After every HEARTPOWER, I excitedly go back into my life, waiting for the Dark Night to pop up. Why? Because it is a very, very good thing!
It signifies rapid spiritual advancement! And, from experience, I can tell you once you've gone through it a few times it no longer fears you. Why? Because you know you are not your personality.
What is the purpose of the Dark Night? Well, this is what makes it all worth it. You see, Spirit craves more than anything else to know itself. It's Self returning to its source. And so, the Dark Night takes place so you are lead back home, to your true essence... which... is Love.
This is why so many HEARTPOWER participants, and avid spiritual devotees experience higher and higher states of love as they evolve. They are getting in touch with Who They Are. The obstacles are removed, and thus love shines forth as an expression of the Ultimate Reality.
Its spontaneous, and truly beautiful.
Let's push forward. What else has changed?
Time has very much loosened its grip on me. Where I would remain unconscious for sometimes hours, even days, is now seconds and at most minutes.
The experience of my life has very much moved into the now e.g. as I'm writing this I can feel my fingers moving along the keyboard... there is a throbbing in my head (from the energy), and a glow in my heart. This is all a present moment awareness experience (as opposed to a periphery... which... is how it used to be).
Here's another case in point:
The other day I was driving in my car and I heard a very loud thud on the left side of the car. I was certain that I either had a huge dent, or some scratch. My immediate reaction was to express an expletive (which I did).
However, a short moment afterwards, something interesting automatically took place. I observed (and I mean that literally) my heightened reaction come down very quickly (within seconds). It was not through my own volition. It just happened spontaneously, and all the while, I simply observed it happen and was very much in awe.
Not of myself... but of Spirit working through me.
It's as if the illusory self (the ego/mind) was immediately put under control of the spirit. Within moments, I was at peace and went back to listening to my music. In fact, I was so much at peace that when I arrived home I totally forgot about the car. So much so, I went straight up to my apartment without even so much as checking to see if there was damage! There was no residual effect of what happened on the road. It was experienced, and then dropped.
There was no suffering due to keeping the experienced suspended in time.
This is the moment to moment awareness I was talking about earlier. Time really does release its grip on you. One's reference point really does move from the external to the internal. You are not rocked about in the boat as much. You know, enlightenment is a funny thing.
There was a time when I thought the term enlightenment was some Herculean achievement befitting only the most dedicated spiritual devotees (usually living in India).
However, just recently, I was going for a walk along the beach and a very strong realisation hit me.
Here it is:
Whenever we are being loving, compassionate, and joyful, we are living as enlightened beings.
In that moment, in which we express true love to another, we are ‘enlightened'.
Enlightenment is not something we achieve. It is not something you even strive for. We already have it. It just needs to be allowed to shine forth. It's a letting go. The difference with the true spiritual masters... is... they are able to maintain a state of non-resistance. They are able to remain in that state for most, if not all of their time. And so, love and peace is their prevalent condition.
Dear friend, if there is one thing I can attest to, after doing quite a number of HEARTPOWERS, it is this:
It gets easier and easier to live in a loving place. It gets easier to let go.
Trust me on this. Without invoking the will, love automatically shines forth from the heart. It radiates out in its own splendor. And you merely observe this happen. You sit back in awe of the beauty of spirit taking a greater presence in your life.
And it IS wonderful. Well, that's about it.
If you're thinking about coming to HEARTPOWER, please do so. Give yourself the gift of knowing yourself, your true Self. When you do, you'll wonder how in the heck you missed it all this time.
Love, Alexi
PS Of course, no discourse about my spiritual growth would be complete without thanking from the very, very depths of my heart Daniel and Sandra, without whom the last 12 months would not be so magical for me.
Folks, I think you know how much I love you... but... I'll say it again. I love you soooooo much.
Brynn Spiegal - 4 Months After my First Transmission
Hello to Lara, Sandra and Daniel,
Just checking in....When I visit your website I experience a powerful resurgence of awakened energy, the deeksha experience you gave me during my time with you in California. I still can't believe it. You always work for me. This is so rare! It is totally beyond my understanding how you are catalysts for me like no one else. As I'm trying to describe my feelings I'm becoming overwhelmed with this "HEARTPOWER" once again. Thank you!! What more can I say.....I can hardly wait for January at Sanandaloka.
Much love,
Brynn Spiegal, San Diego, October 2005
RADICAL TRANSFORMATION
Michael Joubert July 2005
I thought of myself as spiritually aware, having read all the books, travelled around the world, given up money and a very ego based lifestyle, and having an intense desire to help change the world. I was at a low point in my life when I came across an add with Sandra and Daniel in it, and I was drawn to go to the HEARTPOWER weekend like nothing has ever drawn me before.
My first transmission left me writhing on the floor with every negative emotion and all the pain of my past, that I had done such an amazing job of ignoring, rushing out of my body, out of my arms and hands. The impenetrable walls that I had put around my heart to stop myself from giving and receiving love, for fear of rejection and abandonment, then exploded and I felt my heart grow in my chest while this massive energy rushed out of my hands. I can count on 2 fingers the times I have cried in my life before this. I sobbed uncontrollably at the knowledge that I was releasing so much pain and then cried for joy for the first time in my life as the realisation of Grace, Divinity and Love that was now filling all of me set in.
Each subsequent transmission that weekend left me quite dysfunctional, but in a state of awe and absolute love. This remained with me for about 3 weeks before one of the most painful and difficult periods of my life began. I moved through this three month period rather detached from the level of suffering I was going through.
One morning I woke up and I felt like I had never felt before. I had no thoughts to associate with and I was in absolute awe of life and of being alive. Everything was like I had never really seen it before. I saw amazing beauty in everything.
Attending many HEARTPOWER Transmissions since has enabled me to have an intimate relationship with the divinity within myself and others. The mind no longer has control, leaving me in constant states of bliss and peace and no longer needing to help save the world. The spiritual egos judgements of the ignorance of others and what they were doing to themselves and each other has dissolved and a sense of the perfection of life and the perfection of each person's journey is now present.
The radical change in my life is not only happening on an inner level, but is also having amazing affects on career, family life, relationships with others and bringing all sorts of unexpected delights. One of those things being that those close to my heart are now having life changing occurrences happening to them as well.
The unconditional love and the integrity that emanate from Sandra and Daniel leaves one in no doubt that they are in the company of Enlightened Beings in which the Grace and Divinity of God shine through. This creates a space in which all participating in the HEARTPOWER weekend can experience. Grace, Divinity, Unconditional Love coming from within their own being. This gift then grows within to enable one to truly know who they are.
My Heartfelt thanks to Sandra, Daniel and the HEARTPOWER Team.
HEARTPOWER MELBOURNE JUNE 05
Lesley Douglas - Melbourne, June 2005
I have had an amazing realization of why I have been living my life the way I have from birth until NOW. Why I chose my parents, my husband and the impact of my life on my daughters. I truly believe that I have set them all free, as I have been freed of all my fears from the past, that have created my life of struggle. I have a clear understanding of why I am here NOW and the importance of my full Enlightenment for the whole of the human race. My divine destiny. My heart has been opened up more than I could have imagined and I can feel the Divine Presence of the wonderful Heavenly Beings that have worked with me this day. I have a very real sense that The Body and The Mind are not my true identity and I feel the Love of God flowing through me. I am now wondering how this realization will create my life from now on, especially with my relationship with my husband.
Thank you with all my heart.
Lesley Douglas - Melbourne, June 2005
WOW! I feel as if I am at Home for the first time I can remember in my heart. The security and love that I have always searched for is inside me. I never realised before that my heart actually has a palpable power coming from it and that for the first time I have truly experienced what love really is. My desire is to be able to keep my heart open like this forever, so that all my loved ones can feel my love for them and so they can feel the love inside their hearts.
Thank you to my two enlightened friends for helping me and guiding me to here and for experiencing this for the first time I can remember. You are truly divine.
Steph Collis - Melbourne, June 2005
Today reinforced my connection with God, whereby God is the seed of love in my heart and God is in everything and everyone. "I am in you, and you are in me." So I am always connected. In addition I was given this message: "You are travelling a path that not many have travelled, but don't worry or fear because I am here holding your hand." My intentions were to be firstly enlightened, secondly to have God Consciousness, thirdly to have God live through me and lastly to create the money to go to India for the 21 day process. I am currently feeling connected to God, feeling unconditional love, bliss.
I Love You Sandra and Daniel!!
Steph Collis - Melbourne, June 2005
Today's experience is one in which I feel very humbled by. I am really starting to understand this on a much deeper level. In the first half of the morning I was very focused on my intentions, however, it was not until I surrendered to these intentions and the process that they began to manifest. It was when I let go and said "I am here to serve" that I was enveloped in bright white light.
The second half of the day, my intention changed to "Surrender to enlightenment." It was amazing to receive the transmission with this intention, it felt incredible. It was then when I felt God living through me.
Wayne Grant - Melbourne, June 2005
Hands on head, I feel nothing! I let go. Then suddenly feel myself expand. Tears flow freely, I feel love and grief.
I see the images of Sandra and Daniel before me and I feel their love for me, I thank them and kiss them on their hands. They are followed by two figures. It is Sananda? How I love thee! I kiss his hands and feet. Sananda raises me to my feet and gestures towards a wise, grey bearded gentleman dressed in a red and gold gown.
The masters bring my attention to a great light, Our Father! How I yearn to be one with him, a longing that seems to have lasted an eternity. I step into the light. Tears flow continuously. I begin to quiver and yet feel paralysed. Father fill me up, I surrender it all to you. Let my will be your will.
I feel such gratitude and love. I just want to hug everyone in the room like a father who wants to hug his child. Nothing seems to bother me, I just feel love. I am on a high, an almost euphoric state like I being on drugs. It feels like the former me is passing away.
I feel peaceful, content and completely whacked out.
Mandy Weaver - Melbourne, June 2005
Mandy's body isn't.
Mandy's mind isn't.
I AM.
I am the light.
I am peace.
I am love.
I am the everything.
I am the nothing.
I am everyone.
I am no one.
I AM.
Alexi - Melbourne, June 2005
Once again I experienced a lot of peace. My head does hurts, which is cool. More than anything, I guess all I can say is that I disappeared, I realised even more deeply that "I" never existed. There is only consciousness. In the evolution of my consciousness, this is a milestone, yet I am really quite calm about it because the ‘me' that would get excited about "stuff" doesn't play much of a role in my life anymore. It really has shrunk. But now I am thinking, ‘is this just the mind talking?' I don't think so because I feel calm and I don't have a compulsion to think, certainly not now anyway, and very little in my day-to-day life.
Surrendering really is a big part of my life and it is getting very, very easy. As is simply asking for help, asking for guidance, asking for my next step - whatever that is.
I am now realising that I don't need to "do" all that much. Way Cool.
Tom Haberkorn - Melbourne, June 2005
The energy ran down my spine and the up again through each chakra, expanding each as it went. I felt no restriction in this flow as it made its way up into my head and back to my higher self in a loop/circuit. I feel clear and alive with energy, my heart is expanding with joy, grace and gratitude. I feel my abundance finally coming to the surface.
Melbourne, June 2005
My journey today was all about the grief I had caused others to feel. In the past life regression I learned that I was the driving force behind the building of a monument, a very large one in Ancient Egypt. I was wealthy and powerful and many died to fulfil my outcome. I taught men to worship a monument rather than life itself. Today I was humbled, I grieved a grief that I did not know was in me. I was humbled that even though I caused great pain to many, I was love. Today I felt love from every aspect of the room. I felt the warmth of GOD. I also now know why I have hidden my own power as I do not wish to hurt others for the inappropriate use of power. That is, until now. Thank you all for this wonderful journey.
The Journey of Truth.
Thank you for these past life processes, it has been very empowering for me!!!
Rhonda Anderson - Melbourne, June 2005
During our group discussion with Louise and Lesley, it was wonderful to see how our lives were unfolding because of our past lives and how similar we are. It was also good to be in a conscious state of quietness just being still and observing all the little things when no noise is intruding. It is a great gift to be with everyone here in this place, thank you, it is a loving experience.
Radha Koch - Melbourne, June 2005
Just beyond my thoughts there was a place that feels like a new territory for me. When the hands touched my head there was an unspeakable sensation of tingling light like liquid gold pouring into my head. Then a shaft of bright white light shot through and I felt like my brain was actually opening; like the Dead Sea that parted. My head was metaphysically filled with a soft warm, familiar bright, comforting energy. It made no difference whose hands were there, each time a soft love pervaded.
Frances Bonning - Melbourne, June 2005
While receiving the energy, at one stage I had the sensation of falling deep into the earth - it felt like being in a fast moving elevator heading for the ground floor. I don't know yet if I made it into the core, I didn't have a sense of having completed the journey and there was nothing there except the darkness.
During rest time, as while receiving the energy, I had a number of vibrations move up through my body. I saw animals - a bear and a goat. I also asked a number of things of Jesus; to know him; to do with me whatever his will; to be one with him. I then had an image of Jesus physically opening his heart up wide for me to step into. We were heart to heart and he wrapped his arms around me and embraced me.
When receiving the energy, I did have the image of the Indian God/Goddess with many arms (I am unsure of the name of this deity) I could also smell, very strongly, roses. The smell would surround me, then move off and later come back again - so beautiful and strong.
Murray Cox - Melbourne, June 2005
So many experiences today. When Sandra talked about the Ancients in Brisbane, my heart filled with love and remembering. Then during the mornings' spiritual detox I was surrounded with deity figures and I could smell sandalwood and roses, a smell I have always associated with high level energies. During the afternoon session my back became very straight and I was drawn up and forward in the chair. Tremendous amounts of energy built up in me with great heat and when Sandra transmitted the energy to me, my energy joined with hers and poured out with enormous force. I sobbed spontaneously as love rushed in and filled me to overflowing. Then I started speaking in a strange language, uncontrollably. Every time a new pair of hands were laid upon me the energy would rush up my spine and cook me. This was an amazing experience. I was then drawn upwards towards a brilliant light and I joined with this light and became one with it. There was no sense of my body.
Thank you.
Mary Anne Weaver - Melbourne, June 2005
It is never too late for anything, this conscious, or conscience awakening process is the best investment of time in our life-time. When we improve, things around us improve. So peaceful, so wise, so wonderful is the divine state of being.
Peter Stanbrook - Melbourne, June 2005
This is my 3rd HEARTPOWER weekend and easily my deepest experience is far. After lunch on the Sunday I found the transmission very, very relaxing. The depth of the entire body relaxation was probably the most total and satisfying I have ever encountered.
Thank you so much and I can't wait for the next South Yarra transmission afternoon.
Sanandaloka June 2005
Walking up to the sacred land of Sanandaloka was quite profound for me. Sure, I've heard many stories of the effects Sanandaloka can have on one's state... but I never truly understood it until I was there. Walking up the hill leading up to the building a sense of peace and calmness descended over me. My mind became even more silent than what it was previously (and quite honestly, it was very silent). Warmth began to emanate from my heart... wonderful and exquisite warmth. I had a strong sense that I was returning home in some way (though this was my first visit). Once standing in the temple, and looking out onto the Bay of Islands I became quite overwhelmed with love, oneness, and peace. I almost started crying actually. I can't wait until I return!
Alexi - Sydney
Dear Lara, Alison, Sandra and Daniel
First of all a big thank you for last weekend in Russell. I just wanted to give you some feedback from the Russell weekend. This weekend I wanted the energy to work with me to clear any remaining blocks I had towards attracting a new relationship. My partner Roger died just over 4 years ago and I had written my list of what I wanted in the next 'Mr Right' but hadn't attracted him and was suspecting I needed to do a little something towards that end. Well in the first 30 mins what should Sandra and Daniel share but how they met and straight away I felt 'things' stirring! Next thing I know Sandra is sharing her reaction to knowing she needed to leave Australia and the music "Time to Say Goodbye" appears on the radio. At that point I was overwhelmed as that was Roger and my 'theme' song. He came home one day and said he had heard a song that brought a lump to his throat. He had bought the CD and as we sat together listening to it we both cried. Five years later I was playing this at his funeral. So this has always been a powerful piece of music for me and in the four years since Roger died I have played it to help me through grief, anger and just when I needed to balance - always with huge emotion attached to it.
In the meditation we did Saturday morning Roger came to me and said goodbye. This was the first time I consciously recall him doing this since his death although I had often said goodbye to him. The fantastic thing was when I was playing the music on Tuesday after the weekend all I felt was love of the music and tremendous peace - something I had not experienced before with this music. It truly did feel as thuogh I had said goodbye to a chapter of my life.
And thank you Daniel for sharing how you asked for the relationship in your highest divine interests. For several weeks prior to the weekend I kept getting a message that I was limiting myself in what I was asking for in my work, relationship and lifestyle. When I got home from Russell at midnight on Sunday I ripped up my lists of requests for my new bloke and instead asked for the relationship and lifestyle in my highest divine interests. This definitely feels way more exciting!
The other profound thing from the weekend was hearing Michael asked Jesus into his heart. I have always had a very direct relationship with God and had never bothered to ask Jesus to share my life. On Sunday I decided I would ask him to enter my heart. And boy has he ever!! His energy feels unlike any other I know and he is so totally there the minute I say hello. I must admit to still feeling a little shy around him but have promised I will keep connecting with him so that I can talk as easily with him as I do with God. It seems a funny thing to say but I realised that spiritual friendships are like physical ones - I need to take the time to develop the relationship so that it becomes a comfortable chat between old friends.
Thank you all so much for your love and inspiration. I daily feel my cellular structure changing and the feelings of bliss are like a giant hug from God. Love you heaps.
JG - Auckland
HEARTPOWER BRISBANE JUNE 05
Dotti K - Brisbane, June 2005
For the first time in 15 years I do not feel any pain in my body. It is amazing and I love it. I have felt the energy increasing for every exercise we have done. I feel so much more aware. Thank you so much.
Dotti K - Brisbane, June 2005
I am not sure where to begin... I have been through a very intense part of my journey the last 7 weeks of this life-time. I have travelled very fast and covered lots of ground and I am here by choosing to live from my heart. This is trust, this is the picture of me trusting the divine energy. My husband bought me the ticket. I have travelled through awareness of my life and past life as an observer and have been in a space of grace and gratitude, knowing everything is perfect. I saw the wall today and I saw the bright light through the purple wall. My heart is beating very strong and hard and I have this tingling everywhere and I was kissed by a spirit on the right side of my cheek. I know I am on the right path, I know I am love, I know it is all good. Thank you.
Jody - June 2005
My body felt like a ball of light, waves of energy flowing in all directions. Intermittently I felt like I left my body though I am not sure where I went. It has happened to me before but today it was very strong.
Jools Bond - Brisbane, June 2005
In the morning process I felt the important thing was self acceptance. I do feel very loved and loving already and this process has added to that, made it a deeper experience. With the afternoon process, I felt the energy very strongly, I did have a bit of a headache, but I was feeling supercharged. I feel clarity, spaciousness and peace, and the meditations I do have, have been clearer since I have received the energy. The energy is lighter. I have definitely been more in my mind than my heart so I've been putting my awareness more in the heart today. I feel like I've experienced a lot of pain and grief already and I feel I have moved on from most of that. I didn't have any feelings of grief in the morning, only sadness when we hugged others.
Samantha Beck - Brisbane, June 2005
I had a very profound experience this morning. I discovered there were still parts of this old pattern of resistance. Wow! I do know that I did bring this pattern into this lifetime, the exercise we did made this very clear to me. I felt so much healing and acceptance in the meeting with that most beautiful white angel. The experience is still with me, with great power of Love. I discovered a very beautiful side of my self. My heart has opened so much more since Wednesday evening. Thank you to all of the HEARTPOWER team. With Gods Love, Susanna.
Liz Pagel - Brisbane, June 2005
What an amazing period of time since the last HEARTPOWER. It is as if everything I see is not real, yet amazingly beautiful. I had a complete breakdown of all my parts during the last few months and what has come back together so more than I dreamed of. I think I finally get it. I find joy in everything I do and feel myself coming from my heart in all actions. Everything I perceive is vibrating at an intense level, as if everything has an outline.
Tony Alder - Brisbane, June 2005
What an amazing seminar. Thank you to the HEARTPOWER team for the love and support you bestowed upon me. I finally met the divine within, I am truly grateful. You will definitely see me again, I'm hooked. My experience today was beautiful and truly amazing. I know in my heart that I am finally on the right road after 48 years of searching.
Olivia Mathis - Brisbane, June 2005
Today I realised my fear and rejection was a cause of my suffering. In a previous life I saw myself as a young girl of about 14 standing on a bridge looking down on my own body. I had just thrown myself off the bridge, wanting to die. I was pregnant as a result of being raped by a soldier. I felt great fear and rejection.
When I was born I was not wanted by my mother, I saw baby Jesus holding me as a baby. I saw Jesus walking with me through my childhood protecting me from the abuse and violence I witnessed as a child. I was living in a meditative state. My refuge was school where I was loved by my teachers. As a teenager my fear and rejection surfaced and after being beaten severely I ran away. Another pattern was one of feeling so unwanted and unloved. This event was triggered by being told you are not wanted here, you have to go as we are building a new house and there is no room for you. Throughout my life I have been rejected, but only by a handful of people as I have overcome a lot of this programming.
The acceptance and love that comes from Sandra and Daniel has promoted profound healing in my life. I have seen so many past lives at their workshops and just being with them is truly so healing. I have come to a place now of being a witness to most events instead of a victim. The love in my heart to those I have seen in these past events is overwhelming. Forgiveness is a part or my being and always has been. Pain has also been with me but now not as much a part of my being. I have so much gratitude to Sandra and Daniel and the HEARTPOWER team for their unconditional love.
Murray Cox - Brisbane, June 2005
The experience today was very profound, I was feeling in tune with the energy from the very beginning.
During the afternoons transmission I had set my intention at becoming more love ... I surrendered myself to God and became more of God ... I lost all sense of myself and felt as if I was pure consciousness without a body.
When the hands came, it was always a surprise, but I quickly returned to the sensation of no body each time. It was wonderful. I feel so at peace with all that is.
Thank you HEARTPOWER.
Murray Cox - Brisbane, June 2005
Today I crossed the bridge from my mind to my heart. I am so full of love and gratitude. This work is not for me, it is for all humanity. If each and every one of us did this work then the planet would be instantly healed. In the meantime, it is our responsibility to do all that we can to counterbalance the negativity until such time as we all get it. Much love and gratitude to the HEARTPOWER team for continuing this process and providing this vehicle for us to "cross the bridge"! Love and Light. The Eagle.
Brisbane, June 2005
I felt sensations of oneness, peace, bliss and joy. There were no energetic boundaries, I was connected with all. I felt quiet, love and endless peace. The body is heavy and weightless at the same time. There is no body at all! There is a feeling of emptiness.
The energy started working days ago, with transmissions entering my head at different times of the day. I could feel my frontal lobes buzzing for days before the HEARTPOWER seminar.
Hawaiki - Brisbane, June 2005
A very peaceful, relaxing feeling with a hug.
Feeling of love.
That's what it is all about.
To have that sense of love.
Thank you to all of the HEARTPOWER team.
Many Blessings.
HEARTPOWER SYDNEY JUNE 05
Sydney, June 2005
I was crying uncontrollably from deep down within. I think that I just opened up and the energy took out / dug through every inch of my body and took out all the sadness and anger that I have ever experienced and not fully gotten over.
Thank you HEARTPOWER.
Eve Abrahams - Sydney, June 2005
Before this weekend, after receiving the energy on the Wednesday evening, I felt joyous and happy, and many of the things that irritate me were not bothering me at all. I felt loving, and nothing that anyone could say or do could destroy my happiness. Since my mother told me about this weekend, I have felt so much excitement towards it. When the time finally did come, I was able to get up straight away out of bed, something which is usually hard for me to do.
I was always reluctant to do past life regressions, but this time I felt genuinely ready for it. I was taken back into a past life where I was a young Native American Indian girl. I would spend my time alone. When we were taken into a painful moment in that life time, I witnessed my step father viciously mauling a close female figure with a spear. My real father was a well known and much respected figure in the tribe and he was not present. I was unsure whether he was out at battle or had died in battle. Moving onto the time of death in that life time, I was not much older than 15 and I had been knifed by a white man. My final thought was that I was not accepted, that I was an outcast and disconnected from any other being. I find that this is much like the life that I am living at the moment, like a repeated pattern.
Whilst receiving the energy, I felt as if the top of my head was a flower bud, opening up, and the petals were uncurling to be a great purple flower sitting on my head. I also had an image of stormy clouds opening up, showing a great man riding a chariot. I felt as if he was a guardian.
I got shivers down my body, like tingles that you get down your spine, except that it was all over my body. During the time that we were lying down, I found myself drifting down a river. I saw many images, like an enormous, radiating, loving energy coming from me. I started to get a headache, but it went away and dissolved into my body as I relaxed and allowed the energy to come through and fill my body. I feel very relaxed and serene.
Eve Abrahams - Sydney, June 2005
On the Sunday, whilst being cleansed by the black charcoal clay, I felt much relief as I felt all the negativity and pain leaving. This was the day I really felt myself opening up and letting the energy take its course and do what it had to do. During the time that we were receiving the energy, with every set of hands that I felt on my head, I felt the energy flowing through my body, filling every part of it. I had an image of myself as a free spirit and found myself bounding on an African Savannah in the form of a cheetah. My entire spirit had been transformed. I wasn't chasing anything (as a cheetah) just running, being free, slowing to admire the beauty of the sunset. I felt as though, like a snake, my outer layer was peeling away, revealing myself as totally transformed. As I got up to go on the floor, I felt that this pulsing energy was expanding. I was not moving as Eve, but I was moving as energy. Whilst lying down I was receiving many messages in the form of voices, many of which I cannot remember. When I was lying down I felt a great big headache, but as soon as I made a conscious decision to let go and surrender, I felt the energy flowing and my headache went away.
John Reisp - Sydney, June 2005
I felt tremendous heat on my head and then there was pressure as if it was applied directly on the brain. My heart was beating faster and I could feel it through out my body. Whilst lying on the floor, my head felt like I had a head cold. I felt really tired and my head/back/neck ached. My thoughts were of my family being in a house in the forest, amongst the serenity of nature - the sounds of wild life and water surrounded the house and all you could hear in the house was laughter.
John Reisp - Sydney, June 2005
As with Saturday, I felt my body temperature rise and I could feel my heartbeat through my entire chest cavity. I felt that my feet were anchored to the ground, but my body, from the waist up wanted to move uncontrollably. I felt great inner peace and for the first time I was happy with who I am. It was also one of the first times I was able to really slow down and clear my mind of clutter.
Thank you! Love you!
Greg Donovan - Sydney, June 2005
I have passionately desired to know and live from my heart for many years. Today I have been given that experience. My heart is not separate from that of others, the rest of my being or non-physical entities. I experienced this connection and the clarity of purpose that comes with this understanding.
Today is a critically important stepping stone to being all that I am, and it was certainly the most joyous of any step to date. At the physical level, I felt movement in my body, some headache, and I felt cleansed. I feel clearer in my beliefs and excited about creating more of what I want in my life. I am smiling from within my soul and it feels great!
Shirley Mason - Sydney, June 2005
With each set of hands placed on my head I experienced a reconnection to different aspects of my being. My head disappeared completely and became one with the Universal Consciousness. Every star in the sky existed inside of me. Waves of blissful energy were reconnecting me to me. I was opening deeper and deeper to the new energies on the earth, making them a more consolidated part of myself. I experienced oneness, love, peace, joy and divinity. Daniel came up to me during the last practice and asked me "Will you join us? It will involve you transforming your life." I said YES.
Golden building blocks descend down through my crown chakra throughout my body, then the "language of light" and information packets descended into the building blocks, having the quality of light, spritzy champagne bubbles. Then the building block disappeared but new golden energy remained. I have a completely new body and consciousness, all I have been before I seem to have left behind. Yahoo!! I was so ready for this. I am blissed and excited and offer myself to the continuing and ever expanding levels of consciousness of the planet. Sandra was the Divine Mother and enabled me a deeper connection to the Christ with in me.
Bless you Sandra and Daniel and the HEARTPOWER Team.
Kerry Keogh - Sydney, June 2005
"I can and I can"
Cave. The heart is a cave, a golden cave. I sat in the ante room, small and quiet. As the process unfolded, I walked down dark passageways, using my hands to guide me in the dark. Walking slowly, feeling the walls. Tunnel after tunnel. When I looked back I saw that each corridor I had entered and left was now illuminated, and glowing golden in colour. Next I sat in a huge chamber and, at the same time, as I sat I watched me continue to walk the corridors. Then I saw an overview of what was my heart, like a sunburst, with me in the centre, me, illuminating each arm, like tentacles reaching in to me. I had a sense that the walls were becoming bejewelled. I heard the word "teacher" boom in my head and after I heard it, in shock I tried to run away. I want to know how to teach and what and where.
Chantal Frappier - Sydney, June 2005
This is my first HEARTPOWER program. The moment I lay down I felt a strong energy going right through my body. I drank some water, but that was not enough as I had an extreme thirst. I felt a tingling sensation all over my body and my heart was pumping very fast. At some point I almost dozed off, but came back to see the outline of Buddha's face, which appeared as a vision. Later I observed a flight of eagles. My thoughts were mainly about the hurts I have experienced during the recent months.
Lisa Bradley - Sydney, June 2005
I started this meditation with this huge pain in my right knee that intensified throughout all of the transmissions and it became bearable only when I finally lay down. I felt a lot of energy around me and a sensation in my head like tiny fingers in my brain. There was a lot of energy and vibrations through my body. I felt very peaceful when I lay down and for a while I thought I was the only one there. I felt large and I forgot where I was for quite some time.
Mandy Weaver - Sydney, June 2005
I saw "golden" people waiting for me to go up to them so they could put my golden robe on and take my rightful place as a "daughter" of the Living God. They appeared to me as priests and priestesses. I joined them. Jesus, my "brother", took me up a mountain to my Father. As I climbed, "hands" helped me up the very steep cliff. Other hands and people tried to stop me and their appearance was quite demonic. I hesitated, then Jesus told me that the Energy would help me pass them. He said I could no longer stop where I was or go back to where I had been because if I looked inside myself I would see they were illusions. I went through and up and entered into PEACE. Everything is but a thought of my choice.
Liz Pagel - Sydney, June 2005
Today, as hands were on my head, I felt no separation between the person within me and myself. There was no I and them. The energy just felt very peaceful and all enveloping. I felt I could connect with it even with no hands on my head. It was just amazing to feel "at one" with people I love and admire so much. I wish there was a better word than "admired". Thank you! My life, as much as it is "mine", is now, as I never dreamed it could be. Each moment is passed with a connection with divinity and all seems wonderful.
Gordon Peck - Sydney, June 2005
Today I felt heat and energy moving. I felt very peaceful. On Wednesday night I saw all these little elementals on the floor, swishing around, cleaning up all the negative energy that was there. They looked like tumbleweeds or mops. Swarms of energy, green, light brown, gold on top and pink on the bottom and vice versa, they pulsated and seemed to be moving in unison, like a flock of birds or a school of fish, one mind controlling all. It was a beautiful dance/ballet.
Alexi - Sydney, June 2005
This one was really cool. I didn't have any huge experiences or bouts of deep love, just loads of PEACE. But then, that is my predominant state now anyway since I've been coming along to HEARTPOWER. A breakthrough I had was that I know, with every fibre of my being, that the ego, that little sucker, literally has its days numbered. Life is cool! The veil has finally been pulled back. I am feeling the deep oneness that is life.
CLEVELAND JULY 05
Cleveland July 05
While we were relaxing our bodies, I felt the hairs on my head stand up. As we were preparing to receive the energy, I felt an intense feeling, like a headache, go across my forehead slowly as if my frontal lobes were changing. As I was receiving the energy, it was as if a bright beam of light was shooting like a spotlight out of my head. My head felt very heavy.
As we were lying down I had an image of Jesus; at first small in stature, then growing bigger, like a full sized man. He was reaching into his heart and pulling out huge globs of black mud and throwing it at the wall.
Also, while receiving the energy I felt like I was a native American tribeswoman around a fire, bringing my family in close.
Lynda Yanks - Cleveland July 05
I was finally able to materialize 2 of my hearts desires. The first one is that many of my family participated and received the energy and the other was to be able to isolate and remove a remaining blockage to move to a more complete and whole healer.
Diane Peters - Ohio, July 2005
I was talking with God and telling him to help me feel better about myself, to think more positively and to have more God in my life. I felt like he was next to me while I was talking to him and there was a lot of light around him.
This is the BEST thing that has ever happened to ME!
Cleveland, July 2005
I feel a new sense of calmness, a knowing of who I am and who I want to be. I feel a complete desire to be what Jesus wants me to be. It is hard to write, the brain and the hand are not working together, but the heart is calm and at peace. I feel an overwhelming desire to laugh and dance.
LOS ANGELES JULY 05
Anne Mattis - Los Angeles, July 2005
Physically, I experienced a flooding of energy in my chest, especially in my throat. I also experienced stillness and peace. My thoughts would come and go, as would bodily sensations and the energies of others surrounding me. Some questions were answered for me, although now they seemed to have evaporated.
Thank you HEARTPOWER for creating an opening to more consciousness.
John Serpico - Los Angeles, July 2005
While "normally" not lost for words, I find myself unable to express myself in this moment. My mind, my being, - the whole of who or what I am, or what I "thought" was me - is only a void at this time; a vast expansive quietness without boundary, formless, without conflict. My mind is quiet, no chatter; the illusory two voices in my head, forever debating, dissecting and evaluating past, present and future, are one in this present now moment.
I feel free, at peace, empty of the past, a blank canvas, brilliantly white, clean and available to paint the picture of my true self, untarnished by past experiences.
Innocent.
Forgiven.
Healed and Whole.
Thank you, I love you all!
Bill Clum - Los Angeles, July 2005
Everything seems very peaceful. I feel better emotionally after and during the process. The mother and father process was also amazingly healing and freeing. I could feel family both past and present, along with guides and angels. My thinking process also seems different and my mind feels unclogged.
Kristine Catalina - Los Angeles, July 2005
Stillness, calm, peaceful, quiet. A sweetness connecting to a place out of my body far and deep. Not too many words, which is new for me. I felt a very tangible rush of healing energy from the other side. I experienced the presence of the angelic realm and I know that my issue is healed. I felt hot and full of light, I felt my body being an open vessel of love and light. I felt as if I was being touched by the spirit world all over my body at different times. I feel the top of my head is open and light is all around. I am happy and I want more!
It felt difficult at times to be the observer as I felt gone and far away, except conscious, a new kind of conscious, from being, not doing or thinking. I noticed that my desire to surrender to God was stronger than I can remember.
Christine Parker - Los Angeles, July 2005
In the exercise this afternoon I had the very clear perception and comprehension that what I am is this being of light that is not bounded by a physical body as we know it. The thought arose ~ these physical sensations are not who you are. I learned more of what appeared to be the pain of shutting down or closing off the heart in a past life. The identification with the limited self has caused such suffering, such grief. The witnessing of beings acting out their own pain and applying it all around them emotionally. This world has been one of confusion and obscuration. When I was a child I knew this and I kept wondering why? On the one hand to see the world as brilliant and alive, dancingly alive; and on the other hand to find the way to behave is a confusing mystery.
In a dream once, a teaching spirit showed me this immense body of light, who we all are. When asked then "why we don't experience that?" the spirit said, "most people shut themselves down, just like you." I have never forgotten that true moment. What I perceived today was also in that truth.
Los Angeles - July 2005
I noticed images of myself in a cocoon of safety and love. I had thoughts about the love I receive from others and how much I desire that. I noticed waves of purple light dancing during this. I also noticed how much I lack self love and attempted to constantly surround myself with white/gold light and be aware and love every part of my body and being. I noticed pools of bright blue light at this time. At one point I experienced doubt and distrust. During these feelings I noticed grey shadowy colours that seem to be freezing and cracking with red oozing out. This feeling of doubt and distrust was temporary and was replaced by dull orange and bright yellow.
Over all I felt a cocoon of safety and love.
I felt I was surrounded by people who were no different that I was.
I felt my tension and stress in my neck, face and shoulders melting through out the session.